Right, I got pretty quiet around here and well, everywhere for a while now... But I feel like I gotta write some stuff down overhere.
What happened was... suprising to an extent, I've seen you get agressive on the chat, with players on the server before, more times than I'd want to. We all make mistakes and we all slip up...
And I can understand what you're feeling when you're basically unable to go on the spot you used to hang out with friends, for over 4 years... The realisation to that is probably pretty painful and while I wouldn't want that on anyone... This is a really hard situation overall because of the fact that you've been around for so long. I don't think the decision made was unfair, but at the same time, because of myself knowing you for a longer time... Even though we had our... moments.. I'd still give you another chance. However... I have a slight feeling that somewhere along the line you might slip up again... And the doors will probably stay shut at that point. IF you end up in the same spot again, you can trust me, you'll lose the rest of my respect that I still have for you.
Times are changing and the internet gaming community overall feels like it's getting more and more toxic by the month, but I will never understand how anyone can start saying these things like they're nothing... I don't know how you act on any other server you might have played on that maybe happens to have less rule enforcement... But at this point, I just don't know. I don't know if this was originally a slip up that you actually regretted on point or if It's just something you don't usually go to when playing on VIVA, but might actually happen elsewhere... and It might have not hit you till the ban was sealed after the vote.
I genuinelly don't know, If you're sorry for saying it or if you're sorry for saying it here, on a clan server where you have friends and you should know how our stances are on the subject of those things are.